A New Companion

What have we here?

Let’s take a closer look.

Awww, it’s a baby nine.

But here’s the real important metric:

At only 0.8″ in width my new DB9 just disappears when carrying. I’ve been using a cheap IWB holster, but I’ve been considering a wallet holster and using a money clip for the few things I actually use from my wallet. I will probably pick up a Crossbreed Supertuck as well depending on how well I like the wallet holster.

Besides being small dimensioinally, it is also quite light at 12 oz unloaded. Even so, the recoil is very manageable, and always felt controllable. There are no external safeties, but the trigger has a long pull similar to shooting a double action revolver.

I’ll post a more in depth review later on down the road when I have been carrying it longer and have put some more rounds through it. So far it very much suits its purpose in that it is comfortable to nearly always carry, and will be close at hand should it be necessary.

My Race Realism

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When I first started writing this blog I could never have guessed that just after the six month mark I would be debating racism, race realism, race relations, or race at all really. However, I’m not one to shy away from a topic or how I feel about it, but if this topic is to be discussed I have to admit my bias. I don’t believe I see the world through rose-colored glasses; I try to assess the facts and use those to form a conclusion and my opinion on a matter. That opinion I am proud to say can be quite fluid depending upon the information I have available to me. I consider it a character strength to be open-minded about learning new things, and changing when it is warranted. But I am biased.

I recognize this bias, and I am telling you about it because while I try to come from a place of reason in discussing these topics, my own experiences, what I have seen in my life will color what I feel, think, and say. In my life presently my best friend is black. This is someone I would die or kill for, and if he did the same for me (as he would) I would look after his family. This is an extraordinary man, not just an extraordinary black man; that qualifier is not needed.

The other member of our little crew is also black. He’s the youngest at 22, but he too has a driving ambition. While it is my opinion that he has become carried away in his decisions to buy a house and too much truck at this point in his life, there’s no doubting his work ethic or drive to go after what he wants. When I met him he was 18 and he told me very matter-of-factly that he was going to work up at the gold mine. At this point he had the desire, but not the plan, With some guidance from my friend he changed that quickly. He made connections, talked to the right people, showed up at the right times, and he made it happen. Now at 22 he is a homeowner and makes over $100k a year.

As deep as these connections go, I know they must be looked past to see the big picture. Before we do that let us narrow the scope and look just at myself as I continue down the path to incrementally outing myself on here. I was raised in a mixed household. My mom is white and my father is half Alaskan native. Tlingit to be precise, which is not this:

But this:

And this:

Though Tlingits sometimes get crazy and could look like this:

When they were getting ready to fight some Russians. Though for a party they may dress like this:

Notice anyone smiling in all these pictures? No? Why you may ask? Because fuck that, that’s why. These were hard people living hard lives in a hard time. You know what wouldn’t be tolerated? Fucking whining about it. Also, Tlingits never lived in these:

But in longhouses like this:

Built not in places like this:

But in places like this:

And this:

So my race realism for myself is I am one quarter Tlingit. One quarter a minority. My complexion is as white as most any white persons’ so I find it easy to blend in, as the features that would identify me are easily missed by anyone who does not know what to look for. And before anyone inquires, I do look like my Father, and we sound eerily similar to many people. Despite my skin color I know what it is like to be prejudiced and discriminated against. I know what it is like to be tortured and harassed by a couple cops for over a year simply because they know of my heritage. It also makes me distinctly aware of when I’m experiencing white privilege.

With that out of the way we can broaden the scope some again, and look at things as they are here in this region. Dr. Illusion was correct in saying there is a different culture up here. No one is going to say good job or pat a man on his back for being on welfare. No one is going to accept him for how much he takes from the government or how many programs he is in. If he is in them, he sure as shit shouldn’t say so among other men. Maybe where things truly differ up here as compared to the South is that goes for everyone. Every race. While prejudices are always going to exist, in general you at least get the benefit of the doubt; if you choose to live up here you probably deserve the chance.

Onto the big picture and how I see it. I have done some traveling, but I also understand that everything I see or could see in a lifetime are just small snapshots and could never represent how things really are. So while I feel like a lot of the data is truly flawed, I will have to use some of it to form my position on matters. One thing I won’t disagree on is black violence; it is obviously a problem, with other blacks being the primary victims of this problem. Now the thing about numbers is they can be used and looked at in many different ways. The numbers that sound especially bad are that blacks commit approximately 60% of all violent crimes while constituting around 15% of the population. Terrible, right? Of course, but let’s use those numbers a bit.

Using the data from 2011 there were 5.8 million violent crimes committed in the United States. Using the 60% figure that would mean blacks committed about 3.5 million violent crimes in 2011. Transpose that onto the 15% of the population, which is around 42 million, and you come to the conclusion that approximately 8% of the black population committed a violent crime in 2011. A pretty astounding number indeed; far higher than the rate for other races. However, that still means that 92% of blacks were generally innocent in 2011, but let’s look even harder at the numbers. Of those 5.8 million violent crimes 3.9 million or 67% are simple assault. Not exactly a good thing, but can be as innocuous as pushing somebody and that person being a little bitch about it.

That leaves about 1.9 million crimes a year (including robbery) that are considered to be more serious. Using the 60% again that would mean 1.1 million of those crimes are committed by blacks. Putting that number against their population of 42 million gives you 2.6 percent. That leaves 97.4% of blacks not committing a serious crime in 2011. More than enough majority to warrant being given the benefit of the doubt in most cases. Now as far as large cities with very high poverty rates? I’ll be on my guard against everyone, black or otherwise. Another number to look at is the overall rate of violent crime is declining and has been for about 30 years with a slight bump in the 80′s. With the majority of violent crimes being committed by blacks that would also mean they have made the most progress in that time.

These are just numbers and our opinions are based on factors so much more complex, no matter how much weight we try to give them. But if you are a logical reasoning person they are worth considering and incorporating into your view. The really important and most meaningful thing is to forget all that when just looking at the man in front of you.

Initial Response to “Iron Sharpens Iron”

Alaska “Stand Your Ground” Bill Passes

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Sometimes this feels like the most backwards fucked up place in the world. Then things like this make it feel like the most sane. From the Anchorage Daily News:

JUNEAU — Alaska’s latest “stand your ground” bill has passed the House of Representatives.

HB24, by Rep. Mark Neuman, would remove certain criteria that people must meet before they have a right to use deadly force as a means of self-defense.

Today, Alaskans are allowed to take lethal action if they reasonably believe it is necessary to save their life or protect themselves against certain violent crimes. However, a person isn’t allowed to use such force if they know they can avoid it by leaving the area – unless they are in their home, workplace or protecting a member of that person’s household.

The Big Lake Republican’s bill would remove the duty to retreat for people who are in “any place where they have the right to be.”

“You have the right to defend yourself in your home,” Neuman said. “Why shouldn’t you be able to carry those rights to anywhere you have a right to be?”

Read more here: http://www.adn.com/2013/03/20/2833161/stand-your-ground-bill-passes.html#storylink=cpy

While I feel like it’s sad this is a step that now has to be taken to protect those who protect themselves, I feel like it’s still a step in the right direction. Optimistically I would like to think that this can be used as an example of responsible citizens and thus enable other states to pass similar laws. Realistically this is probably the kind of thing that will only exist here.

There is also a bill being put together with the purpose of protecting citizen’s rights granted by the second amendment from being interfered with by the federal government. I’m not holding my breath for that to find much success. It will have overwhelming support, but I don’t know that will be enough.

Response to Dr. Illusion’s video on Equality, Liberalism, and Socialism

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Dr. Illusion takes a strong stance in his latest video, and it is a bit of a summary of his latest thoughts and posts.

A part on which we can fully agree is the 80/20 ratio of producers to consumers. Welfare has long gone too far, and it is the worst plague modern man has experienced. The goal of welfare is not to help people when times are tough. No, a program like that would be set up much differently. The goal of welfare is to get more people on welfare. The more people that are on welfare, the more people that are dependent on the government.

As the average or below average person does not want to work or be productive anyway this is a system that naturally will and I believe has reached critical mass. Whichever direction that takes us, I don’t think there is much deviating from it, until it is utterly unsustainable. So another point we agree on: they have won. With an asterisk. If we believe ourselves to be above average, above the more common man, then we take some responsibility for him in the feudal sense. Not providing for his welfare, fuck no. But providing some guidance, and it would be easy. Stick with me here. Water flowing between two points takes the path of least resistance. Hungry peon needs food, the government is that path. Take away that path and he must be productive by default or perish. Of course redirecting water is no easy task when it has become a roaring river.

The point I would have to disagree with him on based on my own experiences is that the lines that divide the classes or the average and above average. I believe this has a lot to do with the very different parts of the country we come from. I don’t believe race to be as big of a factor as he does. Of course all stereotypes and prejudices exist for a reason, and are based in some fact and reality. That said, I think putting the blacks and hispanics automatically lower than the whites is giving the whites too much credit just for being so. The rot of mankind transcends such divides. I don’t give any man any credit based on something that was given to them and not earned. Even (maybe especially) their race.

Looking at it that way also makes you focused on the bees instead of the hive. Winston Churchill famous said, “History will be kind to me for I intend to write it,” and who is writing our history now? Feminists and illegal immigrants are characters in it, but they are not writing this story.

Found it Here Too

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Let’s Do Some Two-a-days!

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I was pondering Dr. Illusion’s post on hunger and it led me to thinking about the power that hunger can have, and how gratifying that hunger is when it is a real deep need. Much unlike what eating usually is for modern man. I can’t claim to have experienced anything like starving-kids-in-an-African-orphanage hunger, but with my busy work schedule sometimes keeping me going for days with very little to no sleep while still mixing in working out and fucking I’ll often go long stretches where I’m so focused on it all that I forget to eat. I forget hunger all together, but then when it hits me, it is a need.

Not everyone is going to keep the kind of schedule to make that circumstance possible, and really it probably is unhealthy and not recommended. But, I was contemplating what a man should do to build that real primal hunger, and the answer is simple and effective: two-a-days! There is a lot of misinformation out there about overtraining, and I’m sure all those gurus have two-a-days on their banned activity list. What those people seem to suggest is that we are all so fragile that our workload must be managed within a fraction of a newton-metre.

The reality is we are creatures of adaption. Adaption is what makes it possible to build strength and endurance in the first place. I wouldn’t recommend doing full workout two-a-days long term, but if someone had the time and inclination to they can adapt their regimen to regularly include working out twice daily. There are many benefits to the increased workload besides feeling like a bad ass more often. Physique changes are of course going to come down to calorie intake, but it can be beneficial to both losing fat and gaining muscle.

If your primary goal is to gain muscle I recommend having your first workout focus on your large compound movements. This would be your deadlifts, rows, barbell presses, olympic lifts, etc. Probably shoot for a routine that will take about 45 minutes. Your second workout would basically be a supplemental one where you work on some isolation lifts or speed work. This may even include the same lifts that were done earlier but with less weight and more reps. I wouldn’t place any real time limit on the second workout, but make sure you aren’t sacrificing intensity to have a longer workout; it’s a bad trade off.

For those whose primary goal is fat loss, I would recommend a more even split. Choose one large compound movement for each workout that you plan to work on increasing your workload with (whether it’s more reps or weight, preferably weight) and maybe an additional one for one of the workouts. Follow up these primary lifts with a couple supplemental ones each workout. This will of course help build muscle as well, just as the other can help lose fat given the right amount of calories consumed. What this method has over the other for fat loss is you are lifting with more intensity more often. Lifting heavy is a huge calorie burner in and of itself, and it increases metabolism for hours after the workout as well.

The feasibility for getting two workouts into a day will range widely depending on how and where you workout. For me it’s easy despite being so busy; I have my own equipment at home. For others this might prove more difficult if you go to a gym and it’s out of your way. In this case you may want to start including some kind of bodyweight exercises in the morning or evening. They have some health benefits of their own, even if they don’t really advance your primary strength and fitness goals. In that case I would also recommend looking into getting a couple dumbbells and/or bands you can use to tailor a good supplemental workout for your two-a-days. You may start lacking for free time (not a bad thing), but you won’t be lacking for hunger.

Mental Health is a Misandrist Wasteland

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As I’ve mentioned before, my little corner in the healthcare world is critical care. My town not being the largest one around sometimes there will be very few patients in the unit and I will find myself helping out on other floors. Every once in a very great while I end up spending some time in mental health.

I loathe my rare visits to this strange land. The hospital can already be a very female-centric place where unbridled feminism can spread its foul wings and soar like few other places or circumstances. Being involved in it since I was a young man certainly did nothing to help me find red pill thinking, except that perhaps it was so wrong I had to take notice.

So you take this culture of female (misuse of often enough) power and take it a step further. These patients are truly in a position of having very little control over their lives. Most are on 72 hour holds or 30 day commitments. Meaning they can be legally held there for those lengths of time. I understand why this may be necessary at times, but it obviously doesn’t apply to every patient admitted to mental health in a community like this.

The eyes of the mental health staff almost gleam with their sense of importance and power. A few words from them to the right people and those patients’ lives can start getting really fucked up. The way they talk about them is just abhorrent; two faced (or maybe three? four?) to the core. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t automatically have sympathy for anybody, least of all those who put themselves in some of these situations.

That said, some situations are genuine. Some of these people have real problems that can actually be helped if treated properly. Unfortunately, but not surprisingly what I saw over and over again was vilification of men; both the male patients, and the men involved in the female patients’ lives. It was so prevalent and consistent that if you didn’t know the nature of women, you might think this was some kind of running joke.

Every female patient had her history and problems twisted to blame a man somehow. All the men were the cause of all their problems, and I can kind of agree with that to a point. While it may be true that we are all the cause of our own problems to some degree, it isn’t the mental health staff’s place to get philosophical. Even when there is an obvious female caused problem in the man’s life that precipitated the sequence of events that led to their admission the man would still be portrayed as essentially evil.

It’s like a chance to brainwash these people even further when they’re at their most vulnerable mentally. The craziest people there are quite easily the staff.

How I Dealt with Beard Hate

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I have a confession to make: I am a victim. A victim of Beard Hate. I know, I know, you never think it will happen to you. How could anyone hate on anything so awesome? But as we all know awesomeness brings forth the haters.

The person responsible for this traumatic event in my life is a co-worker. Now, my theory is she wants to fuck. Why else would she care so much? Seems reasonable, right? It has been my experience that any time a female takes an overly interested position, even if critical, means she wants to fuck. The overwhelming reaction from female co-workers to the news of my affair has been jealousy. Little did I know that several of them thought it would be them I would be fucking if going outside my marriage. In any case, I had enough; I don’t care if it was her way of trying to flirt or anything else, something had to be done.

The first words out of her mouth when I walked onto the unit were about my beard. I played it back to her a little, and then asked if I could speak to her privately for a moment. She all of a sudden needed to leave quickly, had things to do. Right…

I tried to be professional. I tried to do the right thing, let no one say that I didn’t. Instead this had to happen (with spectators):

Me: Do you want to fuck?

Cunty Nurse: What???

Me: (Raises eyebrow questioningly)

CRN: Are you ser– What?

Me: The only women whose opinions that I would care about when it comes to my personal grooming habits are those that I’m fucking. Are you looking to earn an opinion?

CRN: People? How many are you fucking?

Me: That, like my beard, is none of your damn business.

And I walked away for report.

Fighting the Fear of Success

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Think you don’t share in this fear? Think again. Admit it, sometimes you dream of bigger things and it feels completely attainable. Keep the truth coming; sometimes things turn out really well due to your involvement or you accomplish something truly extraordinary, but you do the “right thing” and attribute it to good luck. You were just in the right place at the right time, not more capable and willing to act or work harder than those around you. Maybe you’re religious and blame all that shameful success on jesus.

Even the most arrogant bastard around (usually you, right?) has a deeply ingrained fear of succeeding. Fight that long enough and you uncover an even more deeply set fear: succeeding too much. This fear is so insidious that I promise you it effects you daily and you may not even realize. Its tendrils spread widely and penetrate deeply; and as far as I know being on the receiving end of unwanted penetration isn’t usually a male fantasy.

This insidious nature allows the fear to manifest itself in many forms. The most identifiable and closely linked one is fearing failure; by comparison this fear is much more straight forward. We confront it daily, often overcoming it and attaining the small successes that make us comfortable and feed into the fear of greater success. When we still fail it isn’t a big deal, we’ve been failing all our lives. We are conditioned to accept failure as part of life, and make no mistake, failing well is an invaluable skill.

It is a skill that without much thought we only build so far. One of the most valuable aspects of learning game is that this skill is identified and actively worked upon. The argument could be made this is the most valuable skill that contributes to game because it can benefit a man’s life so widely. Probably the primary benefit (there are others of course) to someone having had to learn game versus being a natural.

The other pillar upon which the fear of success is built is the fear of change. Whatever is shitty about our lives right now is probably something we’re used to. It is accepted and known; it is comfortable in the most terrible way possible. Stockholm syndrome can take many forms, and we remain captive to the most ridiculous circumstances.

I have actually been observing an interesting manifestation of this principle in one of my co-workers. She’s redneck not in the endearing salt of the earth way, but the way that makes you cringe at the thought of her being of our same species. She is also lazy, close minded, and fat; this gluttonous sloth has brought in fast food every shift I have ever worked with her. Just thinking about her putting those disgusting cheese ball puffs in her mouth makes me gag. In any case it should come as no surprise that she is also terrible with her finances, drowning in terrible soul crushing debt that she seems to wear as some sort of badge of honor.

Her and her husband have put themselves so far under that you would think they could never dig themselves out. Well that would probably be true except they have recently fallen into a nice sum of money somewhere between $500k and $1m, depending on a couple factors. To me that sounds like a second chance; enough to reboot their life to a degree. However, instead of using this as an incredible opportunity for change they are going to sink themselves further into the worthlessness of their current life. The decisions they are making with it now, and with what they plan to do with it they will be in an exponentially worse financial position than they ever could gotten themselves into previously. This time next year they will owe more in taxes that they can’t pay than they make together in a year now.

You may think this is simple shortsightedness, but for all her faults she’s not unintelligent enough to grant her that; she did make it through nursing school somehow. At this point success for her is gift wrapped, it’s not even the more difficult choice. Before her unexpected windfall she could drone on for hours about how much she wanted her life to be different; to change this or that or everything. Now she takes obvious comfort in knowing that despite extreme opportunity for change and success, she can properly fuck it all up to maintain the status quo.

Of course this is an extreme and unusual example. One that illustrates a point somewhat but (hopefully) isn’t very relatable to my readers. The primary lesson to take away from it is she doesn’t even realize she is doing it to herself. So while the ways we may sabotage ourselves are more subtle, so too are the ways in which we must combat it.

Besides our own self limitations that we set based upon our histories and experiences, society will try to keep us all average and will put barriers in front of us and try to punish us if possible. Understand that everyone is a part of society to some extent (including ourselves) and the negative influences can come from unlikely places. Those who feel most they have our best intentions at heart may be our highest hurdles.

In a future post I will go into depth detailing techniques to fight the fear or circumvent it entirely. Also some unexpected effects it may have. In the meantime remain vigilant, it’s your most effective tool.

The Hunt

Life, liberty and a misogynistic pursuit of happiness

A New Companion

My Race Realism

Initial Response to “Iron Sharpens Iron”

Alaska “Stand Your Ground” Bill Passes

Response to Dr. Illusion’s video on Equality, Liberalism, and Socialism

Found it Here Too

Let’s Do Some Two-a-days!

Mental Health is a Misandrist Wasteland

How I Dealt with Beard Hate

Fighting the Fear of Success